“Revelation”

How to explain how I feel, when I dont’ even grasp it myself?
Feeling a bit of far away and need to go back for my health.
I can draw it, paint it and write again, let my heart be the dreamer for it is,
but even then and even though I still don’t know or realize what it is I miss…
More and less I try to ease and yet confess that I don’t.
Sincere as I do want to be, sometimes it’s better that I won’t.
And pull my face away from them who talk without their eyes,
they are oke, but I will free myself from all there lies.
Not to judge, but just to beat the better out of all,
‘cause am I foolish or am I real? I don’t want to look at a wall.
So although I’m searching myself in myself and in you, I keep wondering why?
Why we people stick to things that eventually do make us cry.
Maybe there is no relief in revelations that I spit out,
but I feel good about it, without a doubt it’s fine tot say things out loud.
I don’t hurt your feelings so don’t hurt mine and keep longing for the place,
where you can be your most beautiful you and let it shine in all your beautiful ways.
Only a revelation, can come from seperation, and it’s neither good nor bad,
it’s a deeper insight into the heart and state of mind, into thoughts you can’t forget.
Don’t be a prisoner, be open and laugh, be happy, be free, be you,
be down, be up, be on the top of all that counts and is true.
A mood, a night, I will read it again and will know how I felt at this moment in time.
A foolish heart? A journey to start? Or just some words in a rime….?